Pain of Love and Hate

 

Pain of Love and Hate

 

 

When he first saw me

His eyes were full of anger

I was so nervous and scared

But somewhere in my heart I knew that anger won't last long

His anger started to turn into a love

Until that dark day came into our life

Where he lost my trust

He asked me to marry him

I could feel his hate has reached somewhere

Where he can never love me nor either can he hate me.

He says he hates me

But his heart says he loves me

He shows no feeling for me

He is wearing a mask to hide his feeling

I love him and no one can change that

No matter what he does

I might not be the one for him

But he is the one for me

Everything I do for him might not matters to him

But I know its matters to him

I still I try to be with him

Hoping one day he will realize his mistake

sometime I say to myself I am the stupid one for loving him

When I remember his words for hating me

My heart splits into pieces

I can't stop crying

Just thinking of him hurting me

Mentally, Physically, and Emotionally

He is Killing me and himself inside our self's

I love him so much want to hate him

But still can't hate him

I will wait for him and I know when he finds the truth out he will make up for everything he has done

But will I forgive me that day

ArShi OS: A Lie That Changed My Life

OS: A Lie That Changed My Life

When she was in college she met the boy of my dreams by lying to her best friend. I was always the type of child, who would be left out because her only talents were things you could only do alone, like writing….

I and Lavanya were best friends. Lavanya had recently joined a band with some of her other friends and Arnav was also in it. All the girls in college were in love with his charms including me but I never had the guts to go and talk to him.

Khushi was studying when Lavanya came up to her and started discussing about the band she just joined recently.

“Khushi do you Arnav plays drums so well?” Lavanya said excitingly

“So?” I said trying to pretend like she doesn’t care.

“Whatever… by the way you know we someone who can play piano very well but we can’t find anyone” Lavanya said making a sad face.

I stayed quiet for some time and then spoke again “I can play piano”…

Off course I had no musical talent, and no desire to learn music, either. I told Lavanya that I can play piano very well so let me join, I mean how hard is it to play a piano? If lavanya can play a guitar why can’t I just play a piano? So a few days later I went to our first practice at the auditorium. There was the whole band, all set up and ready to go. On the other side of the room was Arnav playing softly with his drums.

Everyone introduced while I smiled, I shook Arnav hand, and walked over to the piano set to display my "talents". I actually wasn't that bad. But in no way was I good, either. Luckily, no one in the band was all that talented, except Arnav.

When everyone decided to go outside on that cold winter day to get a break ,Arnav and I stayed in the auditorium . We talked for some time. It was a normal talk. Both of were little shy as this was our first talk. After some time I decided to go outside and Arnav came with me... It was snowing outside and I was already cold. he offered me his jacket. I refused. I had a sweatshirt, and though I was still cold, I noticed he only had a t-shirt under his coat, and didn't want him to be cold. After 5 minutes of arguing back and forth about his jacket, he unzipped it, and wrapped it around me. I was little shocked. He was charming, handsome etc. girls use to die to talk to him and here he is being all romantic.

I went back after waiting for half an hour and still not body came. As we were walking to our incitements he spoke “I didn’t know you can play piano”. I stopped where I was and looked back at him.. First I thought to lie but I was so nervous to lie to him. I didn’t knew what his reaction was going to be after that so I told him the truth. “I can’t “I said looking down..

“What? Then why are here?” Arnav said confusingly

“Lavanya was telling me you guys need someone who can play piano so I thought to help you guys”

“What kind of help is this where you yourself can’t even do it?” Arnav said while smirking…

Before I could say anything further everyone else came… We all got to our positions… I was getting really nervous to tell everyone else that I can’t play piano… but thank god Arnav helped him that day..

“Guys I think we don’t need piano… We can work without it…” Arnav said looking at me..

Lavanya “But if Khushi can play it then we can atleast use it”

Hearing Lavnaya I just wanted to go and kill her. If Arnav was saying they can work without it then why was she having a problem? I looked at Lavanya angrily and I had no idea Arnav was looking at me that time….

Off course everyone listen to Arnav and I was out of the band but I stayed with them while they practiced.

That was January 7th,. I am now in my last yr of college, and Arnav has already graduated a year before… we still meet and even going out now. .After I graduate we are planning to get married. I still look back on these days and laugh.If I wouldn’t have lied I was never going to talk to Arnav, he was never going to give me his jacket, he was never going to safe me, he was never going to hug me or kiss me like he does now. I never knew my one lie will bring someone that close to me…

AsYa Os: News

AsYa Os: News

He entered his room only to find Zoya sitting beside their bed and crying.

Asad ran to her getting little nervous.

“Zoya what happened?”He said in his worried tone.

She didn’t say anything but hugged him tightly.

“Zoya shhhh. Tell me what happened?” He said patting her back

She broke the hug and looked at him now scaring him even more than before.

“Did anybody say anything” He said and she nodded in no.

“I went to the doctor today” Zoya said looking at the report that was lying beside here down on the floor.

“Kya kaha doctor nae?”( What did the doctor say?) He said her holding her hand in his.

She turned and looked into his eye.

“Hum maa bane wale hai” (I am going to become a mother)

A big smile spread on his face and he hugged Zoya tightly

“I can’t believe it. This is the best news I have ever gotten” He said breaking the hug.

“You should be happy that we are going to become parents” He said cupping her face in his hands.

“I thought yo.”

“You thought what? How can you think about something like this?” He said making her get up from the floor and sitting on the bed.

“I don’t know” she said innocently looking at the floor.

“Did you tell anybody else in the house?” And she nodded in no

“I wanted to tell you first”

“Like this while crying?” He said with a smirk on his lip

She hit him slightly on his back.

“I was nervous”

“But why?”

“Responsibility” She said nervously

“Zoya don’t think about this right now. Just enjoy the moments. Once my angel comes everything will fine” He said giving her a side hug.

She smiled while he gave her a kiss on her forehead.

AsYa OS: Meeting Him

AsYa OS: Meeting Him

 She stood on the railroad waiting for a train to come. It was dark, raining and no one around to stop her until she heard someone’s foot stop and a guy in his mid-20s came. He stood beside her.


"What are you doing here?" He asked standing beside her without looking at her.

She told him the truth. Her parents forcing her to marry a guy who she didn't wanted to marry.



The guy chuckled hearing her while Zoya looked at him confused.

"You won't understand"



The guy could feel the pain in her voice.

"Asad" he said looking her and extending his hand.



She didn't know whether she should be comfortable with a guy who she just met with?

When he found her all lost in her thought Asad understood and took his hand back.


"What are you doing here?" She asked him the same question as he did.

"Came out to get some fresh here and then I saw you?"



"You came to the railroad to get some fresh air?" She asked him in confusion.

"Not really. I came to pick someone up from the station. 5 hours passed and she still didn't show up. Losing all hopes I was going back until I saw you." He said looking at her.



Unknowingly they both started walking together.

"She? You wife?" Zoya asked and closely noticed his expressions.



“My sister " He said looking down

"what happened to her?"



"Some misunderstandings. She wanted to marry a guy who to my thinking wasn't right for her and because of my stubbornness she ran away with that guy. I tried contacting her but she isn't ready to forgive me. I never meant to hurt her. She is my younger sister. I wanted to protect her."



She could see tears were in his eyes already but he didn't let them drop.

"I am sorry" she said feeling bad for him



"Did she made a right choice?"

He nodded in "no"



"He left her after a year and she doesn't want to face me. I told her I am going to be there for her but she is just not ready"

Both were silent for sometimes until he broked it.



"Where you live? I will drop you home"

"No I'll go alone" she said not wanting to take his help



"It can be dangerous you going home alone"

"And it won't be if I go with you?"



He smiled at her thoughts.

"Look into my eyes and you think I will do anything wrong to you?"



She nodded in no.

"Then trust me"



Without realising she answered him back "I trust you"

She got of his car and bid him good bye.



She walking toward the door when she felt something in her heart and she turned around. He was still there looking at her with a small smile on his lips.



When she heard his car getting start again she quickly ran to his car. He noticed that and rolled the windows down.



"Anytime we can meet again?" She askes him without even thinking about what will he think about her this question.

"Let me know whenever you want to see me"



"Can I have your number?"

He gave her his number whule she quickly save it in her mobile.



"I should get going. It's getting late"

"Good night" Zoya said and started walking back to her house.



"Take care of youself" he yelled back at her.

Zoya smiled to smile to herself and he knew what kind of feeling he held for her in her heart.

OS: Sister Or Husbad?

OS: Sister Or Husbad?

The doorbell rang and little girl ran to open the door knowing her Maasi was here.
“Massi!!!!” She yelled and Manvi pick her niece up in her arms.

“Hey angel. How have you been? Missing Massi? Even I missed you a lot” Manvi said kissing her 4 year old niece.
Jeevika came outside from the kitchen and when Manci eyes fell on her she ran to hug her sister.

“Kaisi ho?” Jeevika asked and noticed a tear rolled down Manvi eyes
“Maanvi what happened?” she asked getting scared

“Di woh Virat?”
“Virat? What did he do?”

Diya looked at her Masi crying and then her mom. She extended her arms for her mom to pick her up in her arms and jeevika did that.
“Mama what happened to Massi?” She whispered in her mom ear in her innocent voice.

Jeevika looked at her daughter innocent face “Massi is mad right now. Why don’t you go and draw something for her to make her happy?”
Diya nodded and told her mom to put her down so she can go and draw something for her Massi to make her happy.

“Come with me”
Jeevika took Manvi to her room and made her sit on the bed and sat beside her.

“Now tell me. What happened?”
“He told me to leave the house” she said looking down

“What? How can he say this? I should talk to Viren about this?
“Nahi di jiju will think instead of handling my problem at my house I came here to complain abaout his brother” Manvi said holding her sister hand

“No Manvi, Virat is changing and even I can see that. If he doesn’t want you in his life any more than leave him. If not stay here I am sure he will stay few days without you will make him realize how much he needs you”

“Di he needs me. I can’t stay here. What will he eat? How will he go to his job? He will be late.” Manvi said thinking about being away from Virat.
“Think before you do anything” Came a voice from the door and both girls turned around only to find Viren with Diya in his arms.

He came inside the room and sat in front of Manvi. While Diya gave her Massi her hand made card with herself and Manvi drawn on it. Manvi kissed Diya before Jeevika took her in her arms.”

“He is here to meet you” Viren said and looked at the door to see Virat standing by it.
Viren looked at Jeevika and she understood that they should leave Virat and Manvi alone to talk.

Virat came inside the room and locked it before going to Maanvi but facing her.
“I am sorry even though I think you were wrong”

“I was wrong?” Manvi said and got up before standing in front of Virat.
“How was wrong? What did I even do?”

“You’re kidding me right? You still don’t know. Com’on Manvi we are married and I am tired of you coming to see you sister every day and if you don’t come she come to our house. When I am off from my work I want to spend some time with you… But that never happens because you don’t ever have time for me. Even though we are living in the same house I feel like we are strangers to each other”
He yelled at her making her scared
Manvi looked down for sometimes thinking what she has done. She didn’t know meeting her sister and spending time with her could change relationship between her and her husband.

“I am sorry” She wispered and looked up to see Viraat standing by the window
She walked up to him and held his hand from behind

“I love you and I would never want to hurt you. I also brother Manvi but I don’t see him every day. I know he has a family to and he needs to spend time with them now. If you don’t talk to Jeevika or see her one day the world won’t end” He said hugged her

“I am sorry what I said yesterday. I was just soo mad and I couldn’t keep my angry inside me anymore.” He said and wiped her tears way

Manvi knew she needs to distances herself from her sister. Before it was ok but now she is married and she knew if Jeevika was at her place she would also choose her husband.
Things changed when they both got married.

After sometimes Virat and Manvi came outside and saw Viren and Jeevika sitting in the living room.
Manvi knew she shouldn’t tell Jeevika what happened inside the room and should keep quite.

“Di I should go home now”
“But Manvi” She said before looking her Virat

“Di everything is fine. You don’t have to worry” she said and smiled
Virat and Manvi left the house after saying good bye to everyone while Jeevika sat on the sofa thinking about something.

“Don’t worry. Fights happen between couple and did you saw how happy Manvi was before she left the house?” I know Virat loves her lot and he will always take care of her like I take care of you in fact even better than me” he said smilingly before Jeevika slapped his shoulder lightly.

RishBala OS: Losing Everything

 RishBala OS: Losing Everything

 

 

RK wake up" Madhu yelled from the kitchen.

After 15 min when she didn't found RK awake she walked to their room and saw him sleeping peacefully like a little kid. She smiled to herself until she remembered what she was here for.



"RK get up or else you will miss your bus. You have to get there on time. The interview started at 10 and it's already 8:30" she said getting his clothes out of their small closet.



He opened his eyes and turned around to look at the ceilings.

"I am not sure even if I will get that one too" he said rubbing his forehead with his palm feeling headache.



"Don't say this. I know you will get a job but at the right place" she said smilingly.

"Now get up. I will get your breakfast ready" she said leaving him alone in the room.



Rk got up from the small bad and went to the washroom. When he came out he saw Madhu setting up the table for him.

"You should rest. I don’t like you working like this" He said sitting down on the chair while Madhu sat beside him.



He noticed she didn't have a plate in front of her and neither was she eating anything.

"You're not going to eat anything?" He asked her in a concerned voice and she nodded in no.



"What did you eat? “He quickly asked her.

"What you're eating. Now eat...” she said trying to ignore the topic.



"But why before me?" He popped another question.

"Because I was hungry" she said and got up from the chair to go to kitchen.



Rk understood and followed her to the kitchen.

"We ran out of supplies right? How can you not eat? I know Madhu we are going through hard time and I promise I will fix everything and for that I need you beside me and you need to be well and if you don't eat you will fall sick" he said hugging her from behind.



She turned around “I will always be with you”


He then grabbed and her hand and took her back to the table where the breakfast was kept. He made her sit in front of him and fed her one bite. And the next moment Madhu did the same thing.
After they were done with their breakfast RK kissed Madhu forehead before leaving for another interview.


Hours passed and Rk didn’t show up. It was night 11 and Madhu was scared as hell now. She was praying to god that he is ok.


By 11:30 there was a knock on the door and Madhu quickly rushed to open the door only to find a drunken RK in front of him.
He couldn’t even balance himself and Madhu moved toward him. She held his hand and brought him inside and made him sit on the bed.


“RK what happened?” She asked.
“I have nothing left in my life except you” He said looking down and Madhu understood what has happened.

ArShi OS: Careless

ArShi OS: Careless

Marrying him was the hardest thing to do for her. She knew he would never love her and more importantly she can never take his first wife position. All she knew was that his daughter Ashi called her a mother and that was enough for her. Well, it wasn’t but she always made herself think that.


She woke up and saw her daughter sleeping peacefully beside her with her little arms wrapped around Khushi.

She smiled to herself and looked at the clock. It was already 9. She hurriedly got up from the bed not wanting to disturb 1 years old Ashi.


She made a wall with the pillows around Aashi she won’t fall down.
Khushi opened the door to her room and saw him sleeping on the bed like a little baby. She smiled to herself thinking how cute he was looking. She walked slowly not wanting to disturb her husband but to her bad luck she hit the table and with that noise Arnav got up.



“I am sorry. I just came here to get my clothes” She said hurriedly and walked to the closet to her clothes.
“Where is Ashi?” First thing he asked her ignoring everything else




“She is still sleeping”
“I will get fresh until you take care of Ashi. Then you can shower and I will spend some time with her” He said going to the washroom not even giving her the time to speak.



Khushi walked back to Ashi room.
“You know today your Papa is going to spend some time with you. Let me get your clothes out so after I take shower I can give a shower to my little baby” Khushi said and walked to the closet.


Ashi got up and looked around only to find her Mama taking her clothes out. Without making any noises she got up and sarted crawling on top of the pillow only to get to her mama.
That’s when Arnav entered the room and saw Ashi was about to fall from the bed and ran toward her while yelling her name out loud.



Khushi turned around and was scared. She couldn’t believe what could have happened if Arnav didn’t came on time.
Khushi ran toward Arnav wanting to take Ashi in her arms who was giggling.


“What the hell Khushi? She could have hit her head really hard on the floor if I wouldn’t have come” Arnav yelled
“But Arnav I didn’t knew she was up. She was still sleeping when I came to the room” She said almost in tears


“How could I have married you? You can’t even take care of my daughter? Oh I see, you’re NOT her mother that’s why you’re so irresponsible”
His word surely hit Khushi heart. How could he say something like this? She loved Ashi more than anything and anyone.



Tears rolled down Khushi eyes and when Arnav saw that he felt bad for yelling at her but right now his daughter was more important to him than her.
Arnav left the room with Ashi in his arms leaving Khushi all alone in the room crying.